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Date:	June 3, 2009 at 11:01 pm
Name:	Emelia

Date:	March 2, 2009 at 4:03 pm
Name:	ashlee. (:
i'm listening to never too late by three days grace and it automatically reminded me of taylor and yeahh. idk, i miss the kid and i hope everyone's hanging in there.

Date:	July 27, 2008 at 12:39 am
Name:	Lacey
Hey guys! It's been a while since i've signed this.. But i hope y'all are still doing really good, and i hope y'all made it through his birthday ok. Best wishes to you guys =)

Date:	June 17, 2008 at 6:30 am
Name:	Ranger Dave
Hi Niccole, What an incredible tribute to Taylor... my heart pours out to you and your family. Be strong and call me if I can help in any way. I gave my number to Kelly at Randy's Pier 61. You have great friends... take care, Dave

Date:	March 19, 2008 at 4:39 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys! I hope everything's going good. It's crazy, the one year anniversary is coming up in a couple months....geez...it's gonna be one of those days everyone's gonna wanna just stay in bed and not wanna do anything cause all they're gonna be doing is remembring....it's gonna be a sad day. I hope y'all make it through it ok.. Best wishes to you all.. =) ~Lacey~

Date:	March 2, 2008 at 9:10 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Oh..my..god.. I miss Taylor. (sigh) I miss him alot. It's not the same at school..it really isnt. May is coming up in two minths..(sigh) that's gonna suck alot.. Right now i just keep thinkin about times hangin with Taylor, and i just feel like crying. I miss him SO much! I really do!

Date:	February 29, 2008 at 7:13 pm
Name:	Barbi Kinne
Website:	http://www.joescloud.com
I am so, so sorry that your Taylor has gone. Your Taylor's story is SO much like my son's. I got a chill when I read the part he wrote about being a 'hero' That is what my son wanted to be when he grew up, now he is. The girlfriend and the court stuff and your grief and your pain is mirrored to mine. I wish you some peace.

Date:	January 31, 2008 at 7:27 pm
Name:	Lacey
Hey guys! i hope you all are doing good. I hope y'all are makin it through things ok, and best wishes to you all! =) Love Lacey

Date:	January 16, 2008 at 4:21 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys, I hope all is going ok and good for you. Hope you guys had a good Christmas and New Years. Best wishes to you all!! =)

Date:	November 25, 2007 at 4:39 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys, I hope y'all had a great Thanksgiving. I hope you all are doing good. =)♥Lacey

Date:	October 30, 2007 at 3:12 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys! I hope you all are doing good, and I hope you have a really great Halloween tomorrow!! Best wishes to you all. ♥Lacey

Date:	October 26, 2007 at 8:13 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
I'll see you at the suicide walk in the morning. I'm ready for this. Hope y'all are doing alright. =) ♥Lacey

Date:	October 26, 2007 at 12:53 am
Name:	Kate Borau
Dance and sing with the angels Taylor. Look out for my two girls, Izzy and Anna. Watch over your mum and dad, they love you so. Kate.(POS).

Date:	October 21, 2007 at 4:07 pm
Name:	Ann, Patrick's mom
Website:	myspace.com/patrickmyson
So sorry for your loss. We miss our sons forever. Sending warm thoughts to the family.

Date:	October 11, 2007 at 5:53 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey Niccole and Family, I hope you all are doing really well. Sorry I havent signed this in a while, I havent been able to get on the computer cuz our internet is out. Best wishes to you all. Love Lacey G. Aka Mexican

Date:	October 10, 2007 at 6:15 pm
Name:	Niccole
Oh Pattye!! It's been forever! I saw you on icq but whenever my laptop dies, I lose msgs before getting to them. Yeah can you believe this? We'd always talk about our boys and we've both been there for each other over the years. I appreciate you stopping by. My email is rrredrrred AT gmail.com I'd love to talk to you. Pardon if I'm slow. I've been really dragging by lately. Niccole

Date:	October 6, 2007 at 3:37 pm
Name:	jamie
sorry i really miss him

Date:	October 6, 2007 at 3:25 pm
Name:	Rusty
I really miss Taylor alot. He was one of my best friends. When i heard about what happened to him, all i could do was break down and cry. Niccole, i am really sorry about your loss. write me back. Much Love, Rusty S.

Date:	October 6, 2007 at 3:19 pm
Name:	Rusty

Date:	September 25, 2007 at 2:26 pm
Name:	Pattye*
Niccole... I've just heard... Rrred honey, just so you know... I love you.. always have... always will... and I will always be here... Biggest Hugs...

Date:	September 6, 2007 at 3:59 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys. I hope you all are doing good. Wow.. I just got done reading the Sherrifs report of May:21:07... I am in shock!! I just have to say that, Niccole you are a very strong person, to have been able to be in the same room with Taylor when he died. You and Doug, cuz he was in the room too. I was, and still am shocked and in tears. I am SO sorry for all of that!! Now knowing all that stuff from the scene... there's pictures, and images flashing in my head. I AM SO SORRY NICCOLE!!!! SO SORRY!! My tears go out to you and your family and Taylor!! I hope you all, Niccole, Doug, Jazzy, Huck, Earl, and Linda, are all recovering well, and are making it through each day, as good as you can! Best wishes to all of you!!!!

Date:	August 29, 2007 at 5:07 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
I hope you all are doing ok. You're are in my thoughts. I am also considering doing the suicide walk in Seattle. It all depends on if I can. Best wishes to you all! ~Lacey aka Mexican~

Date:	August 26, 2007 at 1:06 am
Name:	Tanisha Rose Lindstrom
Website:	www.myspace.com/foxytink_12345
i just found out about this website and i had to look it through.... i'm crying right now for taylor....i miss him and always will...i still can't go into the same class room anymore for the memories of him make me cry even harder...i will always love you taylor

Date:	August 25, 2007 at 2:13 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey Jazzy! I'm glad you're doing good. I'm pretty good too. And I hope the rest of you are good as well.

Date:	August 25, 2007 at 11:17 am
Name:	Jazmin
Website:	toonsoftheworldunite.com
good for you!

Date:	August 24, 2007 at 10:37 pm
Name:	Cindy
Website:	www.myspace.com/livelaughlove360
Hey Niccole, Andrew mostly. Everything your saying is true!! There is one incident that happened 4 years ago that changed my whole life. Someone hurt me and took something away from me. I was suicidal when that happened and i felt like i didnt want to live anymore because of what happened. I was ashamed of myself and i felt like a part of me was missing. I felt like i would NEVER get over what happened but 2 years later it started getting alittle better. I started not to cry about it anymore. Now i know that it was not my fault that person will get there just reward in the end for hurting me like he did. But i got over it for the most part and i never thought i would. 6 years ago a man who worked at the same place that my mom did at the time. He was more like a father to me than my real father was. He liked my mom alot to. They never got the chance to go out. But he died of a cebral hemorage and that really killed me inside, no one has ever loved me like a daughter like he did. I didnt think i would ever get through that rough pach either but i did, i still cry because i miss him but life goes on. i know know deep down i will get through this but i will NEVER stop missing and loving Taylor and wishing i could have done something. This is just another hard patch that i have to face and get through somehow no matter how hard it is even tho it feels like i never will. Somehow life does go on. Taylors passing has touched and changed so many peoples lives. He will never be forgotten he is a hero that will be in everyones hearts. I want to get through this and help other people to get through rough paches like this to.

Date:	August 24, 2007 at 9:29 pm
Name:	Doug
The line is actually "to love is to feel pain" but, yes its the same. The song that it comes from really sums up life: "it's really great to be alive! It's gonna be a world of hurt."

Date:	August 24, 2007 at 7:41 pm
Name:	Niccole McLaughlin
Cindy, first of all, who is yelling at you? Your husband or your parents? You don't have to listen to jack !shrimp! from anyone. Let's make that clear. When I was 17, I thought I had to do whatever would make everyone else happy and as long as I followed that mindset, everything went wrong for me. I never was happy and I was always exhausted and hopeless. Please do me one favor and go to your doctor. Ask him about the possibility of post partum depression. Have you felt like this since you had the baby and now it's intensified by losing a support system such as Taylor? You gotta grow that support system back up. If it means turning from those who are familiar, yet poisonous, that's what you gotta do. There's a saying "To hurt is to love". You hurt now. You love your baby. You said you feel like your baby is the only thing keeping you going. That is why you were blessed with him. You need him and he needs you. As long as you still hurt, it means you are able to love. As long as you can love, you are in a position to grow and improve. As far as your friends turning their backs on you. Of course they are. You actually turned on THEM, if you think about it. They are all 17 and have no clue what their lives are going to be like. You surpassed all of them and you know exactly where you need to be and where you need to go and why. You are much wiser than any of your friends. They can't relate to you right now. Now, the good news is.... when you have a baby so young like this, it will turn and come back to you in great ways. You will be the queen of every baby shower you attend because you will KNOW that 5 packs of diapers is much more valuable than a stupid outfit they wear 2 weeks. You will laugh when your class reunion comes and you see people who are now 28ish and they are starting to have kids. They might be frustrated with the stupidest things. You'll get a silent little laugh inside and it will feel great. YOU will have more knowledge and strength than anyone else your age when that time comes. When and if you choose to have a second child, it'll be easy breezy for you. You have alot to look forward to and I know this sounds cliche and I absolutely hate when this happens. But you have to remember that this rough spot you're in is not going to be forever. A good way of proving this to you is to have you look back to a year ago.... then to two years ago. Look where you were then and how you felt. Haven't you come a long way? Have you made mistakes that you've learned from and will never repeat? Do you feel like you've "come so far"? Well it's because you have and you will continue. You're just starting and you're in a very good position. It's SUPPOSED to be difficult for you right now. It's totally normal. Only you can choose which way you want to go with it. You know why they drop the oxygen masks in a plane and ask that the mother puts hers on first. Then you put your mask on the baby second. There's a reason for that. You have to be able to function and breathe in order to help save your child. I feel like a failure too every day. I couldn't save Taylor either. But what we have to try to remember is, none of us put that rope in his hand. He finely calculated what he was going to do. He tricked us all. He died inside before he even did this. He made that choice and there was nothing anyone was going to be able to do. Trust me, we did exhaust every avenue and every resource. It still happened. Suicide is this silent epidemic that is so hard to fully understand. Because most of us really don't want to die. All we can really do is be there for each other when there are bumps in our road.... and pray for strenth. I hope I can help you in any way. It is really hard to convince another person that life is worth living when I, myself, know that life totally sucks and will probably continue to throw "challenges" my direction. But it is... everything happens for its complex reasons. Taylors death has triggered alot of change in many peoples lives. There has been very positive change that I've seen already. It's still hard for me to accept, but I do find pride in the fact that his death has actually affected others in a way that has been positive and life changing. I hope it will do the same for you... Please write back... We care! Love you, Niccole

Date:	August 24, 2007 at 6:39 pm
Name:	Jazmin
Website:	toonsoftheworldunite.com
hi lacey. im doing good. how are you

Date:	August 23, 2007 at 9:24 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys; Niccole, Jazzy, Huck, Doug, Linda, and Earl. I hope you all are doing good. Best wishes to you all.

Date:	August 23, 2007 at 9:20 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
To Cindy: We don't know each other but your story touches me for some reason. I just want to say don't give up. Think of all you have to live for, and pull through. You can do it. There are people that care about you. Don't commit suicide. I thought about suicide when Taylor died too because of all the pain I felt going to school and not seeing him anymore. And never talking to me. I miss him so much too. But somehow I pulled through it. I thought of how much I would hurt the people around me, and I couldn't do it. So just hold on and you will make it. I believe in you. Because I know how much you miss Taylor. Because I miss him soooo much too. Hang in there!

Date:	August 23, 2007 at 8:27 pm
Name:	Cindy
Website:	www.myspace.com/livelaughlove360
Thank you Niccole. Thank you for those resources. I am 17 years old and am married and have a 13 month old son. Life is so hard for me and when i found out that Taylor died i really wanted to die because i had no hope left, i still feel that i have no hope. But i dont want to hurt anyone because i know how hurt i am feeling because of what Taylor did and i dont want to do that to someone else. Its just so overwhelming all the stress and problems and things are never going right. Its really hard to not think about it. I honestly believe my son is the only thing that is keeping me going. I want to be the best mom i can be to him. but at times i feel like im ruining his life and he would be better off without me. I hate feeling like i will never be really happy again. I dont have any more friends in real life, everyone shut me out because i got married and had a baby. Taylor was the only one i had left and now hes gone, When i get yelled at and hurt i have no one to call and cry to anymore. I have to keep all my feelings bottled up inside and its killing me. I need to find a way to let them all out. I need to talk to people who know exactly how i am feeling. I want to be happy again, i just cant find the way. I dont know how many people i have persuaded in the past not to commit suicide and that made me very happy because i made a difference and i would like to continue doing that because i dont want anyone to have to feel the pain that I and you and so many others are feeling with the loss of taylor. Its really great to know that i can talk to you! hopefully, i just registered on that forum so hopefully there are some people on there that i can really relate to.

Date:	August 23, 2007 at 8:25 pm
Name:	Niccole
Cindy K.... first I want to quote something that I posted on the site a while back. This is something to think about. “That’s the thing, suicide has a way of only hurting the people who liked you. The people who hated you will forget your name in a month and, in fact, the evil bastards who tormented you and drove you to this will actually be a little happier with you gone. Suicide is like a bunch of your friends saving up money to buy you a car and then you taking the car and running them over with it.” You will only hurt the ones who are actually there for you. Your problems won't go away if you attempt anything irrational like suicide, cutting behaviors, drugs, alcohol, or anything self destructive like that. I'd like you to sign up for http://www.suicideforum.com and do a little reading. You can post there too and you will be able to relate to alot of the younger crowd there. If you were a friend of Taylors, my guess is, you already know how to reach out to others. You probably reached out to him and he probably reached out to you. I'd love to see you take your emotions and direct them where they need to be. They need to be used as fuel to help others. You can join me and Jazmin because that's what we have used as our "therapy". I was having suicidal thoughts a couple weeks ago, but did the right thing and went directly to my medical doctor and counselor. They helped me change my perspective around. I want to share the number to the Aris program. There is a man named Chris Allen who has hooked us up with proper help in keeping our perspective healthy and our communications open and honest. We never know how we'll feel when we wake up each day. In fact, he's going to be here in 30 minutes. The phone number there is 360-336-9353. You can talk to Jolene or Chris. I've dealt with them both over the years right around when Taylors dad stopped visiting him. I'm sure you feel like there's nothing to look forward to. You think the hurt won't ease. But it WILL. I can tell you firsthand that I have struggled ever since I was 16 years old and I was pregnant with Taylor. It seemed that every aspect of my life was harder than it was for other people. It seemed like no one really cared either. Me and my parents butt heads then and we still do now. That's part of life. But they are there for me. The underlying "hope" that you need to look more closely at is the friends and family members that you DO have that WILL understand you. There are people that have been there and pulled through. You NEED to simply pick up the phone and call a friend when you have feelings like this. DO NOT act upon them. Think of the cute guy you're gonna crash carts with in the grocery store one day. Think of the miracle you're going to create when you give birth to your first child. Your life is just beginning and this is probably the most difficult part you've experienced so far. But in reality, it's going to be years of cause and effect. Everything you do and every choice you make is going to reflect on your life and the lives of those around you. Just listen to your gut and know there are people out there that care about you. I for one, care about you. If you ever need anyone to talk to and have no where to turn, turn here. I'll do the best I can to help and give you resources that will help you beyond my own capabilities. Use this sadness to reach out. That's all we can do. And you are not abnormal for still feeling like this. Especially now that school is starting. It's a huge reminder of how the year ended in June. It's gonna take a long time to heal. And you won't fully heal. You will always carry the memory of Taylor and I guarantee HE would want you to keep going. He would never advocate suicide to anyone. We need you to be on our team to help spread awareness to this "epidemic". Stay with us and let's do some good. There are far too many depressed teens out there and when they get to that "point", so to speak, everything shuts off. There was nothing anyone could do to stop him. His mind was made up long before. He had his preplanned trigger points and faced one of them 24 hours before. It was an impulsive mistake. It was a huge mistake. Take care of yourself. And write me back please. Niccole

Date:	August 23, 2007 at 2:30 pm
Name:	Niccole
Cindy K.... first I want to quote something that I posted on the site a while back. This is something to think about. “That’s the thing, suicide has a way of only hurting the people who liked you. The people who hated you will forget your name in a month and, in fact, the evil bastards who tormented you and drove you to this will actually be a little happier with you gone. Suicide is like a bunch of your friends saving up money to buy you a car and then you taking the car and running them over with it.” You will only hurt the ones who are actually there for you. Your problems won't go away if you attempt anything irrational like suicide, cutting behaviors, drugs, alcohol, or anything self destructive like that. I'd like you to sign up for http://www.suicideforum.com and do a little reading. You can post there too and you will be able to relate to alot of the younger crowd there. If you were a friend of Taylors, my guess is, you already know how to reach out to others. You probably reached out to him and he probably reached out to you. I'd love to see you take your emotions and direct them where they need to be. They need to be used as fuel to help others. You can join me and Jazmin because that's what we have used as our "therapy". I was having suicidal thoughts a couple weeks ago, but did the right thing and went directly to my medical doctor and counselor. They helped me change my perspective around. I want to share the number to the Aris program. There is a man named Chris Allen who has hooked us up with proper help in keeping our perspective healthy and our communications open and honest. We never know how we'll feel when we wake up each day. In fact, he's going to be here in 30 minutes. The phone number there is 360-336-9353. You can talk to Jolene or Chris. I've dealt with them both over the years right around when Taylors dad stopped visiting him. I'm sure you feel like there's nothing to look forward to. You think the hurt won't ease. But it WILL. I can tell you firsthand that I have struggled ever since I was 16 years old and I was pregnant with Taylor. It seemed that every aspect of my life was harder than it was for other people. It seemed like no one really cared either. Me and my parents butt heads then and we still do now. That's part of life. But they are there for me. The underlying "hope" that you need to look more closely at is the friends and family members that you DO have that WILL understand you. There are people that have been there and pulled through. You NEED to simply pick up the phone and call a friend when you have feelings like this. DO NOT act upon them. Think of the cute guy you're gonna crash carts with in the grocery store one day. Think of the miracle you're going to create when you give birth to your first child. Your life is just beginning and this is probably the most difficult part you've experienced so far. But in reality, it's going to be years of cause and effect. Everything you do and every choice you make is going to reflect on your life and the lives of those around you. Just listen to your gut and know there are people out there that care about you. I for one, care about you. If you ever need anyone to talk to and have no where to turn, turn here. I'll do the best I can to help and give you resources that will help you beyond my own capabilities. Use this sadness to reach out. That's all we can do. And you are not abnormal for still feeling like this. Especially now that school is starting. It's a huge reminder of how the year ended in June. It's gonna take a long time to heal. And you won't fully heal. You will always carry the memory of Taylor and I guarantee HE would want you to keep going. He would never advocate suicide to anyone. We need you to be on our team to help spread awareness to this "epidemic". Stay with us and let's do some good. There are far too many depressed teens out there and when they get to that "point", so to speak, everything shuts off. There was nothing anyone could do to stop him. His mind was made up long before. He had his preplanned trigger points and faced one of them 24 hours before. It was an impulsive mistake. It was a huge mistake. Take care of yourself. And write me back please. Niccole

Date:	August 23, 2007 at 8:43 am
Name:	Earl McLaughlin
TO CINDY K. I read you post on Taylor's website about how you feel about life. I can tell you how me (his Grandfather) My wife His Grandmother) and his mom and sister feels. We have a void that nothing can fill and if Taylor would have realized how much he hurt us and all his friends he left behind he would have never taken his life. He was one of the brightest stars in our lives. We are luckey to have three more shining stars left with us, Jazmine, Tanner and Camden our precious grand chindren. Please don't think on these lines of suicide get help talk to your parents, friends or a counceler. Talk to Taylor's mother through this web site. Please. My wife and I would have gave our life for him many times over. Please talk to any one you can to help you, You are too young and have a long life ahead of you you are just starting and I know you have a lot to live for. Thank you for talking with Taylor I wish the outcome for him was different. He wouldn't want you to even think about doing anything to hurt your self in any way. Don't tell yourself that you are a failure. You are a beautiful person Take care and always think positive.

Date:	August 22, 2007 at 5:44 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys! Just wanted to say I hope you all are doing well. And I hope Jazzy had a great birthday. I went to my school yesterday, and just walking through the halls made me think of Taylor. Man going back to school is going to be so hard. It's going to be hard not seeing him in the halls....or in class.....or after school standing out by the busses.... I miss him soooo much!!!!! He always talked to me at school and I really wish he could be here. I wish he could be here to call me Mexican, and tell me he's going to run my house over with a tank as a joke. :[ He had a great personality, and sense of humor! Man Taylor I miss you so much!!!! I wish you were here right now to cheer me up. You're really on my mind right now and I wish you were here to calm me down and make me feel better. You were such a comforting person, and I really need that comfort right now. Taylor you were one of a kind. Miss you like the world!!!!!!! Best wishes to all of you!!!!

Date:	August 22, 2007 at 2:48 pm
Name:	Cindy K
Website:	www.myspace.com/livelaughlove360
Taylor, God i miss you so much, it has been over 3 months and i still cry so hard wishing i could have been there to stop you and tell you how much i loved you. It is killing me inside because i feel so guilty because i feel like i could have stopped you. Ever since the day you died its like my world has stopped, nothing makes me happy anymore. I just wish you were here, ive been thinking about suicide lately, i wish i could be with you! i wish i knew where you are right now!! I wish i could feel your warm arms around me again!! i feel like i cant go on anymore, it is to painful without you here. You saved me so many times, and im a failure because i didnt save you. I hope you can read this. I wish i could see your smile again Taylor i love you with all my heart!!!! You are my hero!!!

Date:	August 21, 2007 at 1:06 am
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys! I just wanted to wish you all the best! And to wish Jazzy a HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY!!!! HAPPY 10TH BIRTHDAY JAZZY! I hope everything turns out great for you, and you get what you wished for this year! ~Lacey aka Mexican by Taylor~

Date:	August 20, 2007 at 9:37 pm
Name:	Lucas Guthrie
Website:	www.myspace.com/lucas_guthrie9859@hotmail.com
I may have not known Taylor but i heard about his death from my friend Cindy Youdarien, I am very sorry for what happened and It may not seem like i care but i do, when i read about him on the website it hurts to know that a person could acctually be that mean to him to where he kills himself, a person needs to know when to stop. Niccole im really sorry for what happened, my best friend died last year and im still not over it. taylor's death even effected people that didnt know him, if anyone needs someone to talk to, Im here for anyone

Date:	August 17, 2007 at 1:56 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys! I just want to check up on your guys to see how you're doing. I hope you guys are doing good. Bes wishes to you all, Niccole, Doug, Jazzy, Huck, Earl and Linda

Date:	August 16, 2007 at 10:37 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
You're a very good, and strong person Niccole. Keep up the courage to stay strong and never give up. I support you in all yur decisions. I hope you guys are all doing ok. Best wishs to all of you! ~Lacey aka Mexican[by Taylor]~

Date:	August 16, 2007 at 1:04 am
Name:	Niccole
Breathe in breathe out. We will fight this. I always have rathered hurt if I could spare you hurt. I'm going to be ok.. I just hurt cuz I love you so much. I will kick this. I'm battling every day baby. Gnite

Date:	August 16, 2007 at 1:02 am
Name:	Niccole
It's only beginning to really sink in and hurt like a blow torch up ones butt. I struggle with analogies but jeez.. I just go hour by hour hurting and hurting and crying and hurting and bawling and then being forced to fake peace amongst others. There is nothing worse than this. Other than losing more than one. I'm scared to death every day for Jazz. Every day is a whole new thing. We don't know how we feel like we get up and rolling. I'm forcing myself out of bed at least. Sounds like it wouldn't be that hard but.... man.... I gotta or I'll deteriorate. I'm already deteriorating. Gnite Taylor. Don't ever be sad when you look down at me... and Jaz.... the rest of us. We love you and understand you and forgive you. I will honor you till the day I die. I'm proud of the person you are.. were. I tried the best I could to keep you alive. I'm so so so sorry I couldn't succeed. I love you and I know if you felt even half of what I feel now, you didn't do this out of vengeance. You were trying to heal your confused broken heart. Damn I would do anything to trade places. Grrrrr,,,

Date:	August 15, 2007 at 5:36 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Oh wow.. Hey guys! Man I'm having a really hard time time right now. I just feel like crying. I miss Taylor so much I right now. I'm listening to Into The Ocean By Blue October and it reminds me of Taylor soo much. I just can't believe he's gone!!!! Now would be an excellent time for his joke cracking to cheer me up. Miss you Taylor!!!!! I hope you all are doing well!

Date:	August 14, 2007 at 10:11 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales aka Mexican to Taylor
Hey y'all! I just wanted to give the best wishes to you guys, and your happiness. God Bless you all ~Loves from Lacey aka Mexican by Taylor~ My each day bring you a little happiness!

Date:	August 12, 2007 at 8:24 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys. Hope everything is going good with you all, Man Taylor has really been on my mind lately. ..Alot. I really miss him. Well Best wishes to you all. God Bless You. ~Lacey aka Mexican[By Taylor]~

Date:	August 9, 2007 at 3:52 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys, I hope all is well with you and each day gets better and better. You are very strong people. Best wishes to you all, Niccole, Doug, Jazzy, Huck, Earl, and Linda. God bless you

Date:	August 6, 2007 at 12:54 am
Name:	allison
oh the part about the rest order I was talkin bout the part, you posted it somewhere where the mother told the daughter that Taylor was the one who wanted it when it was her parents I just think that horrid

Date:	August 6, 2007 at 12:51 am
Name:	allison
hey sorry havent been online in a bit ......yeah its nice to see there r no more dumb comments, my mom and i keep talking about how we need to come say hi I have just been soo busy with wrk. I am doin ok I keep the pic of Taylor that was handed out at the funeral on my dashboard and man I have to say all it takes is the right song or a memory it really makes me cry, lou is mk he is workin alot I know for a while there before he was workin, alot of times he woul be sleeping in the middle of the day and hide in his room I tried to talk w him about it but he didnt want to he got !pike!ed at me and slammed the door...He told my mom he felt guilty cause he hadn't hung out w Taylor lately. He was def depresed (sp) I dont see em much hes usually in his rm playin video games r at wrk..I do wory cause I found out he has been doing sum dumb crap r alot of it lately wich I dont think he did it but once r twice before and now its all the time so I need to talk to him , well hope things are manageable and I will def have to come visit

Date:	August 5, 2007 at 10:10 pm
Name:	Brittany Thibert
Website:	www.myspace.com/brittanyrae_xo
I LOVE YOU TAYLOR

Date:	August 5, 2007 at 12:47 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys how you doin? Random things have been reminding me of Taylor lately. I still find it hard to believe that he's gone sometimes. I miss him so much! Well I hope you're all doing good, and best wishes to you.

Date:	August 3, 2007 at 4:51 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys hope you're all doin good. Best wishes to you all! Love Lacey aka Taylor's Mexican

Date:	August 2, 2007 at 8:27 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys! How are you all doin? I hope your days are getting better, and I hope you all are doing as well as you can. you are in my prayers all of you. God bless you. Much loves *Lacey aka Taylor's Mexican*

Date:	July 30, 2007 at 8:40 pm
Name:	friend
Taylor, i miss you and i know kevin misses you alot to and Niccole i dont know you but im sorry,and from what i hear aunt net has no idea what she is talking about taylor was a very strong person, and has no right to say any of that, your in my prayers

Date:	July 30, 2007 at 5:47 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys! Hope you all are doing good. And hope Taylor is in your guys' dreams tonight. God bless you all.

Date:	July 30, 2007 at 12:52 am
Name:	Mom
I had a real hard day yesterday but today I just nursed myself. I'm terrified to go out of town Tuesday. I hope you can be with me and give me strenth. I'll be alone. I am not getting better. I'm missing you more and more each hour. I actually think I'm hitting a different stage now cuz I keep thinking you're turning the doorknob and about to walk in. This only started today... I'm trying to keep a level head. *big breath. Goodnight Taylor. I hope you're in my dreams tonight. Mom

Date:	July 28, 2007 at 4:03 am
Name:	Niccole
I just found something that made me laugh and I thought of Aunt net. It was at http://www.suicidereferencelibrary.com/ The first thing that jumped off the page at me was "Parents of suicide (POS)" It cracked me up cuz yeah that's so how it is. Since my child committed suicide I'm automatically labeled a POS. A piece of !shrimp!... Anyway I thought that was funny. And hey Allison how is Louis doing? I worry about you guys alot. I missed the part here where she blamed us for the court battles. That is insane. Never once did we mess with them through the court system in any way, ever. We just kept being served papers over and over. It was totally stupid. And something makes me laugh about the sneaking out stuff. I don't know any kids who haven't done that. In fact the funny thing is, that I used to take the dog right in front of his bedroom window for his pooping place. If Taylor was sneaking out, he would have had to walk through the landmines. And getting back into the house would have been quite challenging since our dog would violently bark psychotically with a pin dropping. I hated to even acknowledge the comments cuz I'm not on trial and all that was made with ignorance and hate. They sent their daughter away because of normal rebellion. I didn't hurt or scare their child. But they continually hurt and scared both of mine. Karma has a way of taking care of itself. And yeah, a true christian helps others. They don't hurt people. They would be reaching out, learning, and improving their existance with every chance they get. I'll bet they go to church every sunday though and think it gives them the right to treat others any way they like. There are so many fake people in the world it totally sickens me. Thanks to those who are being supportive though. It means alot. It really does.

Date:	July 27, 2007 at 5:36 pm
Name:	Niccole
I just found something that made me laugh and I thought of Aunt net. It was at http://www.suicidereferencelibrary.com/ The first thing that jumped off the page at me was "Parents of suicide (POS)" It cracked me up cuz yeah that's so how it is. Since my child committed suicide I'm automatically labeled a POS. A piece of !shrimp!... Anyway I thought that was funny. And hey Allison how is Louis doing? I worry about you guys alot. I missed the part here where she blamed us for the court battles. That is insane. Never once did we mess with them through the court system in any way, ever. We just kept being served papers over and over. It was totally stupid. And something makes me laugh about the sneaking out stuff. I don't know any kids who haven't done that. In fact the funny thing is, that I used to take the dog right in front of his bedroom window for his pooping place. If Taylor was sneaking out, he would have had to walk through the landmines. And getting back into the house would have been quite challenging since our dog would violently bark psychotically with a pin dropping. I hated to even acknowledge the comments cuz I'm not on trial and all that was made with ignorance and hate. They sent their daughter away because of normal rebellion. I didn't hurt or scare their child. But they continually hurt and scared both of mine. Karma has a way of taking care of itself. And yeah, a true christian helps others. They don't hurt people. They would be reaching out, learning, and improving their existance with every chance they get. I'll bet they go to church every sunday though and think it gives them the right to treat others any way they like. There are so many fake people in the world it totally sickens me. Thanks to those who are being supportive though. It means alot. It really does.

Date:	July 27, 2007 at 10:21 am
Name:	allison
what the french toast ! what a cumquat bag I cannot belive the things that woman has said, I have known your family for like eight years now and you have always been a wonderful mother Niccole, Taylor couldn't have asked for a better parent i'm sure everyone agrees. It is only natural to feel so many emotions after something like this i certianly don't think you are trying to drag ppl down with you every one feels anger at times like this......and taylor was brave brave for dealing with all that as long as he did I should know I had a horrid time in middle school I had NO friends and had many problems and let me tell you it was hard to just get out of bed just thinking of the torment id get at school, I dont think taylor was the weak one I think those awful ppl were the weak ones they didnt have the strength to tell her that it was them instead they lied and blamed restraining orders on taylor they are the one who are weak for just shipping theyr'e child off instead of dealing with it, maybe if they had tried being more understanding of her and taylors relationship and let her make some choices and learn fom them she wouldn't of had to sneak around......Niccole you will see taylor again someday ....its that crud that makes me not like religion if you were truly a religeous and god fearing person "aunt net" would never say something so hateful as to you never seeing you son in hevan .......gosh I hate fake ppl !

Date:	July 26, 2007 at 10:56 am
Name:	Amanda Baxter
Aunt Net...you have NO idea. You're the one spreading anger and hate. YOU'RE what !pike! people like ME off. YOU have NO right to say that about Niccole. She did ALL she could for Taylor. And, 'Aunt Net' ANGER IS PART OF THE GRIEVING PROCESS. right now, my anger is at you, for having the nerve to come on TAYLOR'S website, and go after his mother. And the ADHD meds WERE to help him concentrate...to help him in school. god woman, you NEED something to do with your time besides harassing people who loved and cared about him. So, this site is made for people who cared about him, so, leave Niccole alone...your the least of what she needs. and US teens...we KNOW why she says those things of hate...we understand it all too well. You've given us a nice target though.

Date:	July 26, 2007 at 9:26 am
Name:	Alysha Faye
Website:	www.myspace.com/alysha_faye
TAYLOR. my brother.. my best friend, the one who picked me up when i was down.. duuude... i miss you, i see you everywhere, i hear conversations we'ev had in my head.. i miss you so much, i miss you and i walking around town and throwing apples at trees. lol goo taylor go taylor. lol .. hunni!! i miss you, i still have all our journals we wrote and drew in when we got hella bored in class. i miss you, and love you dearly. i'll see you soon! ♥

Date:	July 25, 2007 at 11:30 pm
Name:	Emily
Website:	huh?
Wow, I dont understand why some people have to be a constant witch, and never have any feelings or anything. that one person needs to shutup, i bet they dont know the last thing about death OR suicide. that !pike!es me off!!! Niccole is the strongest person Ive ever met, along with a couple other people ((like ashlee and taylors sisters)). Miss ya Taylor!!! I have the blue balls sitting on my computer desk =] i regret not giving them to you now, when you wanted them so bad haha. Love, emily

Date:	July 25, 2007 at 9:23 pm
Name:	Marie
All I can say is Wow...Hey Aunt Net...Opinions are like as**holes everyone has one, Why don't you get a life...go drink your haterade someplace else.

Date:	July 25, 2007 at 8:52 pm
Name:	tanner
Website:	myspace
he was a very good cuzin everytime we would go to dinner with gram and pops i would always look forward to seein him there we would always hang out together we were tight i remember one time at thanksgiving i brought my skateboard over i tought him how to ollie after a few falls (wich was kinda funny) he finnally got it he said it was easy then i kinda gave a little chuckle and then at dinner we were making fun og helen keller wich was very funny. i remeber one time i stayed the night at his house and i was thirsty and i didnt want water so he carried me on his shoulders at 2 in the morning to his frends house were we could get a pop, i was getting really cold and he offered me to use it i said thx he said no prob, i liked that moment a lot, i will never have a better cuzin then him

Date:	July 25, 2007 at 8:18 pm
Name:	Devvan
Taylor, I just wanted to say................ I Miss you SOOOO much. Thinking about you [ALWAYS]. Everyday you go through my mind, not one single day goes by that you aren't in my head. It's amazing to me that I could miss someone this freaken much...I never thought it was possible. Miss you, & Love you... xoxoTits Jr. ---A.K.A--- --Devvan--

Date:	July 25, 2007 at 8:11 pm
Name:	sasy
i miss him. he is loved by many and i am so very happy. i miss him and i hope every misses and loves him the same

Date:	July 25, 2007 at 3:55 pm
Name:	Jason
Talk about hate! I can only say something about the same sex parent comment. I heard that his same sex parent abandoned him several years ago. I know this because one time at school taylor said that his dad was dead. When I asked him what he died from, he said that he was not really dead but he was dead to him. and then he said something about his dad didn't care about him and he didn't care about him either. i remember thinking that sounded really sad. my own dad does not talk to me anymore either. im 17 years old and my mother is a really good lady. she is always there for me. I feel like I should tell her that just so she knows. Look! this website did help someone. It's going to make my mother smile. It seems really mean to be so terrible to someone that you dont even know. It seems even worse because of whut they are going thru. You should be ashamed of yourself.

Date:	July 25, 2007 at 10:29 am
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
This is to "aunt net"!!!!! You just never quit do you!? why don't you just leave them alone?!!!!! They don't need to hear this crap from you!! "Is this what Taylor would have wanted?" Taylor CERTAINLY wouldn't want disrespect towards his family! Taylor was treated with the upmost respect and care at his fragile times! His family did everything they could do to help him, and to protect him!! You just have no idea!! You don't know what you're talking about so just leave them alone already!!!! You've spoken your thoughts and I think that's ENOUGH!! So just drop it!!!! >:[ And I will continue to post on the site cuz Taylor was an important person to EVERYONE! But it doesn't sound like he was to you!! If ANYTHING YOU'RE FAILING TO UNDERSTAND ANYTHING THAT'S GOING ON AND TAKING THINGS SELFISHLY AND ALL WRONG!!!! >:[ >:[!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Date:	July 25, 2007 at 1:17 am
Name:	doug
You obviously dont know !shrimp!. stfu.

Date:	July 24, 2007 at 11:51 pm
Name:	auntie net
Yeah, I realize it is a fragile time, the last 16 years were fragile for Taylor too, but a lot of people let him down. Evidently it is not a fragile enough time to cast blame and hate on others for your shortcomings as a parent. You fail to understand what the other family was feeling all those months that they were in torment over their daughter's involement with your son. Would you as a parent do everything in your power if your underage daughter was being rebellious, sneaking out at night, disappearing for days on end just to hook up with a boy? Out in the middle of the night in the middle of nowhere alone. Yeah those kids were not using sound judgement. No wonder the girlfriend was sent away. I would do the same thing to protect her before she ended up abducted or pregnant if she was my child. And where was Taylor's judgement? If he had been brought up with some solid values instead of running free to do whatever, he would have insisted that the girl not sneak around behind her parents back. He would have insisted that she honor her parents wishes and not be rebellious. He would have steared her toward NOT getting into trouble. He would have insisted that she respect her parents. Instead they had no regard for doing what is right. Playing with fire gets you burned. Neither one of those young kids had sound judgement so where were the parents? Why was Taylor allowed to be running around with her, having sex and being an accomplice to her rebellion? And the drugs? Don't you realize that young people's brains don't even stop developing until age 25? The last area of the brain to develop is the center for logic, so in these formative fragile years kids tend to make a lot of errors in judgement. And boys brains develop slower. And there is a lot of sound research that is proving that the use of drugs to control ADHD and depression in not fully developed brains can cause the opposite reaction. Loading up with antidepressants in an immature brain can actually cause suicidal tendancies. Try doing some research. Everyone always wants a quick fix for their problems. Why didn't you kow he was failing in school? Where was the oversight in his life? You knew he was fragile. Fragile kids need EXTRA vigilent parents caring for them. Taylor did not have the capacity to logically make sound choices. And the most important and influential person in a child's life is their same sex parent. The divorce impacted him in ways you cannot understand. You say you are keeping your site up to help others? Then why have you used it as a platform for spreading hate and blame on everyone else? You sound so bitter. And you have caused many other impressionable youth to take up your offenses as well. Do you feel justified in helping others hate? I read those kids statements. If you really cared, you would steer others toward healing and forgiveness. Instead you slander and give your side only. There are always other perspectives besides your own. Your words are powerful and are causing others to hate. Think about that... is that what Taylor would have wanted? Is that how you honor his memory? By getting as many people as you can to jump on your bandwagon of hate and drag them down with you? I don't think you realize the responsibility you have right now. The example you should be setting for the impressionable youth that are grieving, should be one that steers them toward understanding your son's flawed frail humanity instead of casting blame on others for his death. And quoting your son sounds so hollow. "Those who matter know, and those who don't know don't matter" ...well Nicole you didn't know...so where does that leave you according to Taylor?...And if he was truly brave...he would still be here and there would be no need for your "hate-site". It is inappropriate for you to have all your hate-filled mumbo jumbo law battle on your site. It only gives one side. The only side that matters is that Taylor was sad, couldn't recover, needed help, didn't/couldn't ask for it, no one noticed how bad he was doing, so now he is gone, and it has hurt everyone. So try to get others to not have to go through the same thing. I hope you all can get reality based in your thinking so you can move forward. You sound "stuck" in a very unhealthy place. Grief is natural, bitterness, blame and hate isn't.

Date:	July 24, 2007 at 6:39 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey Jazzy! And hey Taylors Family!!

Date:	July 24, 2007 at 6:36 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys!...I don't know this "aunt net" person, but what I do know is that she has no business speaking to you like that Niccole. And good job to Doug for sticking up for Niccole, you are a very good guy for her and she's very lucky to have you. And this is to aunt net: Just shut up! I don't know you one bit!..But just shut up!! If you have nothing nice to say at a fragile time like this to Taylor's family, then don't speak at all!! What were you thinking!! >:[ Well best wishes to Niccole, Doug, Huck, Jazzy, Earl, Linda, and everyone who misses Taylor deeply. God bless you all!

Date:	July 24, 2007 at 5:19 pm
Name:	Niccole
Wow you seem to be an expert on so many things that I don't know where to begin. So I won't. I was going to delete this, but I want to keep it up as an example. You are the perfect example of someone who is judgemental, insincere, holier than thou, and fake. Your anonimity speaks for itself. I will agree with you on the cussing as being "not very nice" well I didn't feel very nice that day. Other mothers who have been through this understand that. You do not. I will lean to help those who understand and turn my back on those who don't... and who won't. Talk to my dad. He already scolded me. I am here to help others who are down. You are here to kick those who are down. Case closed. I hope you find peace within yourself so that you avoid sticking your nose where it does not belong. Your stabbing comments are much appreciated. **Peeking over my laptop and winking at my son. "Sticks and stones, Taylor... Like I always told you. I love you. And you were as brave as you could be. As Taylor said, himself, "Those who matter know and those who don't know don't matter." Niccole

Date:	July 24, 2007 at 4:27 pm
Name:	doug
Hey aunt net: Shut your pie hole. No one tells my girl what to do. I have your IP address. Now, crawl back under your rock.

Date:	July 24, 2007 at 4:18 pm
Name:	aunt net
Niccole - I read every word on Taylor's site. it is tragic. No mother should ever have their son's remains in a box. Loosing a child is life's greatest most horrible occurance but to loose them senselessly to suicide is the worst ever. Time does not heal all...the longer they are gone, the more you end up missing them. Taylor was too emotionally immature to even be in ANY relationship. He was too fragile to handle the grown up emotions. Those kids were addicted to one another. That was not love. If all of us who got dumped or had a relationship problem or break-up killed ourselves over it, the human race would grind to a halt. He did not have the maturity or emotional ability to see that as with all trials..they pass in time. Tomorrow is a new day. He could not handle his emotions in normal way. He was fragile and flawed. The stress of a relationship gone bad was too much. He could not cope. He was weak, he was not brave like you say. If he was brave he would have hung in there. Blaming the girl or their parents is unrealistic and you are not really facing the truth about your son's depression. Kids don't usually get this upset over these things. The signs were all there. His grades, his isolation, his crying, obcessing about the girl. He was crying out and no one took him seriously. He gave up on life long before her final myspace blog. Blaming her is really you're only way to cope with the guilt. She was just a kid. You were the adult guardian. Unforgiveness will only consume YOU. It doesn't hurt them. Those kids could not have been more wrong for each other. Where were the adults here? Where was their wisdom and counsel? He should have been in a hospital getting treatment for deprssion instead of checking his myspace to see if she had e-mailed him. Get real. And really all the swearing only discredits you. Have some decency. Kids read your rantings. Please be an example for once in your life. I know you loved your son. If you want to see him again clean up your life. If you go to your grave with all this bitterness you will not see him again.

Date:	July 23, 2007 at 3:27 pm
Name:	Mom
Website:	http://www.taylormclaughlin.com
Jazzy! Why you little spammer!

Date:	July 23, 2007 at 3:07 pm
Name:	Jazmin
Website:	toonsoftheworldunite.com
Hi

Date:	July 23, 2007 at 3:06 pm
Name:	Jazmin
Website:	taylormclaughlin.com
Taylor was my brother and I loved him. Hi MexiLacey!

Date:	July 21, 2007 at 10:52 am
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guy's I hope your day is going alright. I posted something on the site for him and it brought me to tears, which I'm still crying as I type. You guys lost a precious angel and he was one of a kind. I hope it only gets better for you all. Best wishes to you all: Niccole, Jazzy, Doug, Linda, Earl, and Huck..and to everyone else who's heart is filled with sorrow. Much love God Bless You all! Lacey aka Mexican

Date:	July 20, 2007 at 12:25 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys, I hope you all are doing good. Best wishes to all of you! You are forever in my heart and thoughts, God bless you Much love, Lacey

Date:	July 19, 2007 at 2:01 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
This is to Earl..Sorry I got the name wrong, ya I knew it was Linda. Ya it was a mental mistake, since I wrote the comment after listening to the 911 call that day I think. SORRY LINDA, IM REALLY SORRY!!!! I will continue to post comments about him and always will. Much love to you all! God bless you

Date:	July 19, 2007 at 1:59 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
This is to Earl..Sorry I got the name wrong, ya I knew it was Linda. Ya it was a mental mistake, since I wrote the comment after listening to the 911 call that day I think. SORRY LINDA, IM REALLY SORRY!!!! I will continue to post comments about him and always will. Much love to you all! God bless you

Date:	July 17, 2007 at 7:27 am
Name:
This is to Lacey. Iknow you weren't thinking but my wife's name is LINDA not nancy. nancy is the girls mothers name that broke of with TAYLOR the day before this happened. I know this was a mental mistake Lacey so keep up the coments on TAYLOR'S guest book Thanks, Earl

Date:	July 16, 2007 at 11:54 am
Name:	Patrizia
Website:	None
Dear Niccole, I'm happy I got to see you and talk with you this week. I already 'knew' your kids cuz we always seemed to discuss our kids along with our jobs. Everytime we'd meet for work but we always shared the similarities of our kids & our life course. With this dedication to Taylor, I got to know your beautiful son who's now looking over his family. You are all strong and I know you know that no matter how bad & tough today seems, tomorrow is always better - it may not be the best, but it always gets better. Keep your chin up girl and I send much love from my family to yours! Trix

Date:	July 16, 2007 at 11:13 am
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey guys I hope you all are doing better, it sounds like you might be doing a little better. Niccole I love the tattoo, I'm getting a tattoo too and I was also thinking of getting a little heart with his name in it as well when I get back home, my mum already said I could. Well I hope you, doug, huck, jazzy, earl, and nancy are all doing as well as you can and I pray only the best for you and your family. Best wishes with loads of love, God bless you guys

Date:	July 13, 2007 at 10:59 pm
Name:	Marri
Website:	www.somedomain.com
Taylor! I know we ended off on a bad note. and i am so sorry for everything. i miss you like crazy and you mean so much to me. you have no idea how many ppl truly cared about you. you always wrote me notes in math that made my day. and you knew how to put a smile on my face. i miss you so much. you were such a strong person, that wasnt affraid of anything, or at least you didnt show it. all of a sudden i started to notice you were gettiing more and more upset in math. and you were hardly talking. a few times i asked you what was wrong and you said you would be fine. and then we all of a sudden got into a fight and that was the last time i had talked to you. and you i feel like such a jerk for everything that went wrong. i miss you bud! and i will never forget you! sleep in peace. MUCH LOVE! -Marri-

Date:	July 6, 2007 at 7:39 pm
Name:	Missy
Niccole, I know it's been a while since we've talked. And then I heard about what happened, and I can't stop thinking about you. My heart aches for you. I can't begin to imagine what you have been going through. I have so much admiration for the strength and the resolve that you've shown through all of it... it takes an amazing kind of person to be able to turn such a horrific situation into an opportunity to help others. Keep your head up girl, and always remember that no matter what life throws at you, you are loved...

Date:	June 30, 2007 at 11:58 am
Name:	Geraleigh Hort
Hey Nicole, Tomorrow is my 18th birthday. I willl celebrate it for me and for Taylor. I hope and pray that each day we all are getting better. I'm happy for you on starting work again. I know that many people said I wasn't close to Taylor, but we grew up together, well kinda you and my mom being pregnant and all. He was like a brother to me and he always will be. He was a younger one by age but acted like an older brother. I am re-gaining strenght and am getting back to normal things. I hope that soon the family will too. I love you guys.

Date:	June 29, 2007 at 6:51 pm
Name:	Ryan Rehkop
Hey man, I know we hadn't talked much lately, well in about 8months actually, but I'm here for you. We all miss you very much. Happy 17th man, hope your partying hard.

Date:	June 28, 2007 at 7:24 pm
Name:	anonymous
happy birthday taylor. i know i didnt know you but i still feel for you and your family. if only i could have talked to you and maybe could have helped you. your family is so brave and they inspire me so much.

Date:	June 28, 2007 at 6:43 am
Name:	Pops & Grandma
Taylor, Happy 17th today We love you and miss you.

Date:	June 27, 2007 at 3:17 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Happy 17th Birthday to Taylor early since i won't be here tomorrow for it.

Date:	June 27, 2007 at 3:16 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey Guys, I hope you are all doing really well and continue to overcome your devastation. Best wishes to all of you!!

Date:	June 25, 2007 at 9:14 pm
Name:	David
im so sorry to hear about taylor... we were online friends for years... over 5... 3 months ago we got into fight and i lost contact... he was angry at me... but i wish i jus said sry... i wish i jus let it go... ive been crying for hours, i cant stop... i wish i did more... i think back on all our convos... i have em save on my computer, i look over them and it hurts... i look back at all the laughing... and i feel happy... my mom tol;d me i shud treasure those memories... i always will... u will always live on in my thoughts... stay gold...

Date:	June 24, 2007 at 4:04 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey Niccole, I just read your new posting and I thought it was beautiful. I really hope you are ok cause I am extremely worried about you guys, especially YOU, and hope you're gonna be ok. Hang in there Niccole, it may take time but things will definately get better.

Date:	June 20, 2007 at 8:03 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Oh and by the way Niccole I meant to tell you this on June 18th, congratulations on starting work again! I'm glad you were able to do that again. I hope it only gets better for you. Love you guys Best wishes to all of you![Niccole,Jazzy,Doug,and Huck]

Date:	June 20, 2007 at 7:55 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey Nicole! Man I've been thinkin' about him alot lately. maybe it's because his birthday is so near by, and I know i won't be here for it so it really sucks but I am going to make it the best day ever just for him. Happy Birthday Taylor!!!! hope everything is how you want it now. R.I.P Happy 17th!! Love Lacey Aka Mexican by Taylor. P.s: I hope your family is ok and getting by. You have been in my hearts especially lately! God bless you guys[Nicole,Jazzy,Huck,and Doug]and try to get better! I'm so sorry!!

Date:	June 20, 2007 at 12:31 pm
Name:	Geraleigh Hort
Nicole, I don't know if I told you... about the last thing Taylor told me. I've always been short, and he knew that too. He came to me on friday and said " You know what, your really short.(put his arm around my neck)Your always going to be my special little friend. Maybe one day, just one day you'll have a growth spert and be as tall as me." Taylor and I have always had this inside joke between us, he would always put his hand above my head(i couldn't touch it on my tippy toes) and say "You have to be this tall to ride the ride". He would still do it to me in high shcool, that started in the 3rd grade. I miss him so much, I'm trying to get better from this all and it's also hard. I'm leaving soon so I want to say " HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TAYLOR", early since I won't be here for it. I love you guys. Take care Nicole.

Date:	June 20, 2007 at 12:30 pm
Name:	Geraleigh Hort
Nicole, I don't know if I told you... about the last thing Taylor told me. I've always been short, and he knew that too. He came to me on friday and said " You know what, your really short.(put his arm around my neck)Your always going to be my special little friend. Maybe one day, just one day you'll have a growth spert and be as tall as me." Taylor and I have always had this inside joke between us, he would always put his hand above my head(i couldn't touch it on my tippy toes) and say "You have to be this tall to ride the ride". He would still do it to me in high shcool, that started in the 3rd grade. I miss him so much, I'm trying to get better from this all and it's also hard. I'm leaving soon so I want to say " HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY TAYLOR", early since I won't be here for it. I love you guys. Take care Nicole.

Date:	June 18, 2007 at 3:54 pm
Name:	Geraleigh Hort
Nicole, God is with all of us right now. I know that we are all still in pain, but may it fade away with all the good thoughts of Taylor. I miss him so much, I've had dreams about him. I love you guys.

Date:	June 18, 2007 at 3:15 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey! there is not enough messages on this guest book so I decided to sign it again! Anyways hope everything is getting a little better for you all each and every day. Have a good day guys!!

Date:	June 17, 2007 at 9:42 pm
Name:	Lacey Gonzales
Hey, Nicole, sorry for what happened, it must be horrible! There is no pain greater than losing a beloved child yet to create a life of his own. I still have a hard time, especially at school. It's kind of odd it smells of taylor wherever I go. And I have been getting blocked identification calls and when I answer nobody's there...sometimes I wonder if it's Taylor. I miss him so much. He was a really great guy. He has really changed my life in a good way. He's inspired me. Nicole this was a really good idea putting this website up. Thank you!

Date:	June 16, 2007 at 5:07 pm
Name:	sean
hey im so sorry for what you are going through. it is sooo hard to lose someone close to you or just in your family, and i hope you aver come your sorrows and rise above to become a better individual.

Date:	June 15, 2007 at 5:41 pm
Name:	Geraleigh Michelle Hort
Hey guys, I know mom and I dont stop by much... but I wanted to let you know that I'm praying for you all and that you're all in our hearts. I love you guys. Nicole, you are like a second mom to me. I love you all.

Date:	June 9, 2007 at 7:49 pm
Name:	Marie
I love you guys!

Date:	June 9, 2007 at 4:45 pm
Name:	Doug
Hi

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June 2, 2007 Taylor, I don't even know where to start. I am just so, so, so sorry that this has happened. I am so, so, so sorry that your life was so short and had so many challenges. I just wish we would of gotten together that day and you would of made it over to my place. Maybe things would of been different for you now. My heart just aches for you and everyone involved. You don't even know how many lives you have touched. Including mine. You saved me in so many ways. I thank you for that. You are a HERO to me. Some people know what I am saying...and I know that now you know what I am saying. God bless you now and I hope you are hanging with Ray. I miss him so much too. Love, Aunt Melissa and Cousin Gibson    Melissa Groenig (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 31, 2007 Taylor...We were so close, but as we got older we slowly drifted apart. Even though that happened you still remain to this day one of the best friends I had. I'll miss you and someday in the far future we'll see each other again, I'm sure of it. Love, Sarah    Sarah Folkes (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 30, 2007 Niccole & family, Im sorry for your' loss. Taylor and I weren't very close but through all of his quirkyness, I could definetly see that he was a great kid. All of us are going to miss him very much! Taylor, Dude!!! I miss you so much! and I never thought that I would, considering that I wasn't very good friends with you. But, you know what side-burn man, I wish that this never had happened. Im going to miss everything about you, even everything that I didn't like, I miss it all now. I know you are in a better place now, and I hope that you find peace and happiness there! miss you Taylor!!    Devvan Robb-bryan (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 29, 2007 Dear Nicole - I hold you and your family deep in my heart & prayers. I knew you for a short time & remember when you were carrying Taylor. Words are so hard to find, so just know you are in the thoughts and hearts of people everywhere.    Melinda Klier (Nashville, TN) Contact me    May 29, 2007 Taylor..Its Paige.I don't know if you remember me because I moved and haven't seen you in over a couple years.Do you remember that time You, Beth, Tyler, and I went into the woods at your dad's house?It was pretty fun.Just like the times we used to hang out at your moms house.All cousins having fun doing random stuff.I'm going to miss you and I am going to miss doing the fun things we did together.I miss you and Love you. Paige    Paige Sem (Lakewood, CA)    May 29, 2007 Taylor, It's been a long time since I saw you. You were such a great kid. I remember the day you were born and how happy your mom was. You will be missed very much. When Josh and Jeremy heard the news they were shocked. They remember babysitting you and playing with you. Rest in peace. We will see you again someday.    Dawn Washington (Lakewood, CA) Contact me    May 29, 2007 To Mike and family, I am so very sorry to hear of the passing of your nephew. I have no idea what happened, nor did I know Taylor. But I imagine you are grieving terribly, and I just wanted you to know I am thinking about you. Take care, Tammy    Tammy Pinneke (Burlington, WA) Contact me    May 28, 2007 Taylor my prayers are with the McLaughlin Family in this time of lose. The Mehlum Family    Marvin Mehlum (Burlington, WA)

May 28, 2007 Taylor, You're in HEAVEN now watching over the rest of this family that were so much there for you from the time you came into our lives. You are the apple of you mom's eye. She worked hard, as a single parent, to teach Love, Respect, and Manners for all you met. She started in your early years to teach the rights and wrongs of LIFE. You and her had to struggle at times to make ends meet but yo both were to proud to ask for help. I know how close you and your little sister (Jazmin) were. You were very protective, but you loved to tease her and then it would all turn to laughter. She sent many letters and drawings with you to read on your journey to Heaven. Taylor, you were Grandma's and my pride and joy. You were our HERO. There is an empty spot in our hearts that nothing will ever fill, until we all meet again over yonder. You came to me for man to man talks quite often. Lots of questions and I always knew if you were satisfied with the answers you recieved. More often we rediscussed until I could see on your face you were pleased with the answer. Taylor, we talked at time of your memories when you lived with us alond with your mom and the times you stayed at our home while your mom was on business trip. Your Grandma spoiled you so much that when your mom came back he would ask about her trip and then tell her all that happened here while she was away. Grandma cooked your favorite foodand made sure she called you to ask ahead for your requests. Our house was always stocked with food and snacks for you and your friends after school. Grandma knew this was your first stop on your way home, until you moved out of town and rode the bus, but every few days you seemed to miss the bus. TAYLOR, Your Mom, Grandma, Myself and your uncle gave you all the LOVE and support we could. TAYLOR MARTIN MCLAUGHLIN, you will always be in our hearts and minds forever, We Love and miss you deeply Bless Your Heart. R.I.P. (Pops and Grandma)    Earl & Linda McLaughlin (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 27, 2007 Taylor you touched so many lives. I loved you so much and I wish there where things that I could take back. You touched my life in ways that even I couldn't begin to explain. I am truly and honestly sorry that this had to happen. But, you are in a better place with no pain and all the love and support of those who are still here. I wish that I could see those bright blue eyes once more. I love you Bear...    C. (Anacortes, WA)    May 27, 2007 Taylor we have shared such great memories together, you have always been able to make me laugh. Since we were babies Taylor, y ou were the one to make me smile if I was sad, laugh wwhen I was bored or whatever it may of been, you were there. I miss you so very much. May you be in peace up in heaven now. God be with you. Taylor, you are in my prayrs.    a very close friend (anacortes, WA)    May 26, 2007 My heart, prayers and thoughts are with all of you, and all the people's lives that Taylor touch.    Charlene (Quinn) Jostes (Stratton, CO) Contact me    May 26, 2007 Our prayers and thoughts are with both families the Capasso's and the McLaughlin's....my God be with you    Sarah of Anacortes    May 26, 2007 Our thoughts and prayers are with the McLaughlin family.    Tom & Kelly Wooten (Anacortes, WA)    May 26, 2007 Taylor I remember you and Collin bugging me and making me laugh I miss you    friend    May 26, 2007 I am proud to have met you, even though it was once. I saw a lot of similarities between us, it goes to show how strong genetics are. I will always cherish the time that we talked. I will keep in touch with your mom, sister and Doug, they have all been wonderful. If they need anything I will make every effort to be there for them. You have a special Grandma and Grandpa. You should've seen his eyes light up when he met me. He saw a lot of similarities. Everyone is proud of you no matter what, and our hearts will be with you forever. Love Always Quinn, Montoya, Daylin, and Madison.    Quinn King (Marysville, WA)    May 26, 2007 Hey Taylor, Havent seen you in a while,, Miss you..    Denise Derting (Oak Harbor, WA)

May 26, 2007 "For if we believe that Jesus died and rose again, even so God will bring with him those who sleep in Jesus". My prayers are for the Family and friends through this difficult time.    Anonymous (Anacortes, WA)    May 26, 2007 To all Taylor's family & friends: My heart aches for your loss. Remeber Taylor in his happy times.    Anacortes friend (Anacortes, WA)    May 25, 2007 Our prayers are with the McLaughlin family.    Greg & Carol DiGiovanna (Mount Vernon, WA) Contact me    May 25, 2007 Taylor. Ive known you since first grade. i will never forget how you always teased me about being with collin. I have very good memeories of you, and you will be missed.    Megan (Anacortes, WA)    May 25, 2007 Taylor- I miss you so much. We were so close. With our moms in high school pregnant together... Growing up with you was sooo much fun. May you be in peace and rest in quietness. Happiness be with you in Heaven. your like a brother to me. I love you so much    Geraleigh Hort (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 25, 2007 Taylor, Even though we haven't really talked I still knew you. I would always see your face when I would walk into the Lunch room. Now that you arn't around I don't know what I will do. Even back in 8th grade we had history together and you would always tell the teacher to call you Steve. Well just always know that you will be missed by many. Even me. We Love You!!!    Katie Little (Anacortes, WA)    May 25, 2007 Taylor, I know we haven't talked as much this year as we have before but that doesn't mean I feel any different, you were really sweet and kind. I have no idea how I will go through another day of History with Ms. Setmire, you were right there and then the next you were gone, that corner will never be the same. I love you my friend and will miss you so dearly. But I now know that you are in a happier place. Rest In Peace!    Hazel Dickinson (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 25, 2007 Taylor, I didn't know you that well but we will still miss you.You always made people laugh and had many friends. You will de dearly missed.    Jon Pfeffer (Anacortes, WA)    May 25, 2007 Taylor, im gona miss you bro. i know that in the last year we havent been as close as we were when we were growin up and im sorry for that. i know your in a better place now. i love you man and i will never forget you. your brother.    tyler carpenter (anacortes, WA)    May 25, 2007 taylor...bro you were so fun to talk to in marketing... you made the class so much fun..its so weird without you there... i miss you man... peace    Dylan Clark (Anacortes, WA)

May 25, 2007 Taylor, I cant believe this happened. I know I speak for a lot of people when I say you made us laugh all the time. It was so hard to go class yesterday to see an empty desk, It wont be the same now.. Know that people do care, and you are missed.    Katreena Saladino (Anancortes, WA)    May 25, 2007 Taylor, i don't remember ever calling you that. i only remember calling you steve, I don't know if anyone else ever called you that. I do know that its the name i will always remember you by. It's hard to believe that i will never see you walk towards me smiling and holding out your hugs with a happy "Victoria!" What am i going to do without my other Taylor? i haven't figured it out yet. But i have figured out that i miss you so much already. you were my friend and confedant and i will miss every moment we shared together. You were an amazing man. All my love to you    Taylor Goldstein (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 24, 2007 Taylor, For as long as i have known you, you have always seemed to be such a good guy i wish that i could have taken more time to get to know you! You are greatly missed at our school, Anacortes High School. Seeing the faces at school makes me glad to know so many people care about you, we are all praying for your family and you will always be in our hearts. Hope you are in a better place now. Love, Shanel    Shanel Kelley (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 24, 2007 Taylor, Even though we haven't really talked to eachother since we dated in sixth grade, but hearing about what happened really makes me regret not talking to you anymore. You are such a sweet kid and you had a great heart. You always knew how to cheer people up. and In class you always knew how to make everyone laugh and smile. I wish we still had the chance to become friends again. I really do miss you buddy, & i wish things could have turned out differently. You'll always be in my heart!..    Amanda Bryant (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 24, 2007 Taylor, i can't believe that your gone, i respected you as my friend, thanx for being there for me when times got rough, making me laugh, smile, cry, and everything you are. Your in mai heart Taylor and i miss you and i care about you dearly. I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER    LaTynia Robinson (Anacortes, WA)    May 24, 2007 Wow Taylor. I miss you so dearly. I don't Think I can Believe that your are gone :( You were a really good person. Ill see you again taylor. I love you.    Savannah Futrelle (Anacortes, WA)    May 24, 2007 Taylor I love you! You were a great brother and I miss you.    Jazmin Carpenter (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 24, 2007 Taylor- Me, Jazz and Ty will always remember you, and will never forget you buddy, We all still have you in our harts - forever and ever - Todd    Todd Carpenter (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 24, 2007 Taylor, You are so dearly missed!! I know that you are in a better place now and you are finally at peace. Today I did something that was very hard for me to do...and I want to thank you for opening my eyes to what could happen if I didn't take that step...You are a Hero Taylor, in my eyes. Erik and I love you and want you to know that you are always in our hearts. Peace and Love, Marie and Erik    Marie Phillips (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 23, 2007 Taylor sorry to here what happen. you are the best. I knew you since 3rd grade. We've been friends for years. I hope you are in a good place. Man Laytina can't stand sitting in advisory anymore because of what happen plus we sat by you. so rest in peace. se you later. your friend.    Michael Ngo (Anacortes, WA)

May 23, 2007 Sideburn Steve you were one of the funniest kids I have ever had the pleasure of meeting. I will never forget all the laughs we had man. Making fun of the pigeon toed kids hahahaha. We will all miss you terribly....    Cody Bitterman (Anacortes, WA)    May 23, 2007 taylor you were always my fav person ever you will be missed alot i know there has been some difficultys between us but you will be missed alot i love ya and miss ya hope we can have a better friendship in the next life ps you always knew what to say to make me smile and you always made me laugh i miss you love amanda    amanda davis (marysville, WA) Contact me    May 23, 2007 My god taylor. I miss you soo much. you were the most amazing boy i have ever talked to or met. you were truthfully, the love of my life. and i'm gonna miss you like crazy.    ashlee janszen (anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 23, 2007 Taylor, we never got along too well but you always cracked me up in class. We are gonna miss you!    Joe Douglas (anacortes, WA)    May 23, 2007 Taylor I will miss you!    Camden McLaughlin    May 23, 2007 A good cousin, it hurts that you are not here anymore.    Tanner McLaughlin    May 23, 2007 Taylor, I'm so very sad to hear about what has happened. But I am happy to have known you and hope that you are someplace better now. You were a great guy.    Tarek Zaheer (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 23, 2007 I love you taylor and i miss you dearly. Your memory will always be in my heart. ?i love you? ?    Brittany Thibert (Anacortes, WA) Contact me    May 23, 2007 Taylor we love you and will be greatly missed! What a shame a life taken and so young..you will be in our prayers and until we meet again on the rainbow bridge know that we love you and miss you terribly.....aunt angela    angela clute (puyallup, WA) Contact me    May 23, 2007 Taylor, I know we have grown apart in the last year or so, but I am so sorry to here the news. You were always one of the funniest people I had ever known. Whereever you may be now I hope all is peaceful and that you are now happy.    Ryan Rehkop (Spring Branch, TX) Contact me

 

Tanner anacortes wa June 5, 2007 5:14 PM		u were my roll model i owuld always look up to u. wen we had dinners and gramps, i owuld always look forward to seeing u but now i cant i love you
Melissa and Gibson Groenig Anacortes, WA June 2, 2007 10:52 PM		Taylor, I have taken this long to write because I just don't know what to say. I am so sorry. You had such a sweet heart. You always asked me how Gibson was. You always asked if I needed anything since Ray's passing and I moved up here. You never once complained to me about anything. You seem to put my needs and feelings first. How mature for sure a young man. You are missed and will be missed forever. Love, Aunt Melissa and Cousin Gibson
Mary Nichols Anacortes, Washington May 30, 2007 2:25 PM		Niccole, I am so sorry for your loss, words will never be enough, just know that you are in my thoughts and prayers and Taylor was a wonderful child from the day I met you and daycared for you so many years ago, you are a terrific mother and woman. Please know that Taylor will be missed. Always, Mary
Rachel Wright Anacortes Wa May 29, 2007 11:38 PM		I just met you, and now your gone. Your birthday was coming up, as is mine. I was going to talk to hannah about getting you a new video game. But you won't be needing that anymore, your in a better place. I went to Art today it was really hard to sit through with out you there. It was also really quiet. I don't want to go tomorrow. Hannah hasn't been to art since. She spoke at your service, it was nice. Rest in peace Taylor. -Rachel
Harvey Kaplan Los Angeles CA May 29, 2007 3:01 PM		Dear Niccole, I have just read the sad news about your son. You and family have been through a terrible experience and now you have to bear what must seem to be the unbearable. I cannot imagine how you must feel since I have not faced what you must face. Know that you have the sympathy and support of all who love you. I wanted to express my personal sorrow for your loss and offer my help in any way appropriate to you at this very painful time in your life.
Bruce and Donna Benevento May 29, 2007 12:02 PM		Dear Niccole, We were broken hearted to hear about your loss. We're here for you if you need anything at all... Your friends, Bruce and Donna
macayla anacortes, wa May 29, 2007 9:10 AM		Taylor~ just know that you'll always be in my heart and you'll always be my friend. i know that your smile will always be in the clouds......and to taylor's family...... i am sorry for your loss........
Shandra Clark anacortes May 28, 2007 7:34 PM		Taylor, you were a great friend and You'll be very missed by friends and family!RIP Taylor! your friend, Shandra
Kris Thompson Anacortes May 28, 2007 11:34 AM		To Taylor's family...You are all in my prayers. I am so sorry for your loss.
Carley Beatty Anacortes May 26, 2007 9:27 PM		taylor i am so sorry this happened. i know that family and freind think they could have prevented it but they couldnt have. alot of people blame themselves but it is no ones fault even though it feels otherwise. you will be loved and missed by everyone and i am sorry for their loss. you were a great kid who was a freind to everyone. RIP taylor. sleep well. carley

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Roald Riepen Netherlands May 26, 2007 10:26 AM My thoughts are with you Nicole and all others involved in this tragedy. May his soul RIP Roald
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Mom Anacortes May 26, 2007 1:32 AM I love you baby boy. I promise you I will dedicate my life to making sure no one else has to suffer the way we have suffered. Good night, my love. I'll dream about you. We will deal with this again tomorrow... I hope you have sweet dreams as I wish to God that I will have again someday. I love you Mom
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Todd and Angela Grahamk, Washington May 26, 2007 12:50 AM Taylor we love you and we miss you.. you were a great great young man and a wonderful nephew and an awesome cousin sydney and mckenna sure miss you got out some old pictures of you today and that seemed to help them remember more...you are in a better place and God loves you...see you on the other side bud..all our love
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Mike Bertrand Westlake Village, CA May 25, 2007 11:38 PM Nicole, I am so sorry for your loss. May you find comfort and strength from your family and friends. Mike Bertrand

 

 

 

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